My eldest daughter, G, is a free spirit. She has what they now call 'high functioning autism' and was known previously as 'Asperger syndrome'. It is a part of the autistic spectrum associated with high intelligence and not visible to the outside world.
She is a beautiful (I still think of be-a-youtiful from the Jim Carrey movie) young girl and sees the world through such different eyes to me that she amazes me every single day.
Her childhood to date has been extremely tough with many challenges that noone should ever have to face, never mind a child, but we are trying to get her through day by day.
One of her strengths is her imagination. She has a wonderful, liberated imagination that seeps from one worldly dimension seamlessly to the next. She often confuses which is reality and has gone for periods of her life determined she is one creature or another according to her currently inhabited dimension. This is her coping mechanism so we don't knock it.
She has an affinity with animals (as do we all as a family, and many people on the autistic spectrum and with many different disabilities too). Her spirit animal is most definitely a wolf and this giver her courage, a family pack mentality and the knowledge that she will be protected and loved by us all without question plus she is tough, courageous and loyal. Many of her stories are based on wolves and their adventures. She often combines these with the elements and has her own ideas on how the universe was created.
So, with her in mind, and a TV programme I had watched out of boredom and the need to switch my brain off (I call it brain off TV- where you can just listen, look up occasionally and not have to think about what you watch) I decided to look into what my own spirit animal may be.
I thought I would use the internet, so searched online for 'What is my spirit animal?' then clicked on the first three links that came up, plus one from the fourth page of results.
I am naturally healthily sceptical so didn't expect more than a bit of fun and entertainment from this exercise, but was still surprised by my results. I answered a handful of questions based on my personality and morals for each site, careful not to input any personal information and came up with the following:
1. The Deer - highly sensitive, strong intuition, deal with challenges with grace, determined but gentle.
2.The Whale - strong inner voice, follow your own truth, in touch with reality, don't get involved in drama, strong bonds and emotional ties with those I love.
3. The Canine - social, loyal, highly intelligent.
4. The Snake - approaching life in a unique way, improvise, sixth sense reading people's intentions, approaching danger. Can be misunderstood, charming, spiritual.
My first reaction was surprise at how different these animals are to one another, but then I stopped to think about my life and my roles.
The constant watching for dangers and triggers for meltdowns from my children would fit with the vigilant and intuitive deer.
My aversion to drama, small but tight circles of family and friends along with my own strong reality based views on life fits with the whale.
My obvious intelligence (haha!) and loyalty to my tight knit circles fits with the canine group, and my unique way of approaching life with all the dangers I have encountered along the way fits with the snake.
I am often misunderstood and often have to improvise to get through the day (not so sure about being charming though....I associate that with negativity and a false persona).
Don't get me wrong - or misunderstand me!- I won't be endorsing any of these websites or quizzes available online any time soon, but can see where the very different question styles and seemingly varied results pointed towards different parts of my role and personality.
The documentary/reality TV show I watched was of a woman who was trying various therapies, one of which was to see a Shaman and try to meet her spirit guide. I would love to take my daughter to do this when she is older as I can see she would get a lot from it and finding other people who are as spiritual as she is would boost her self esteem and confidence no end. For the time being I think it would confuse her and possibly even scare her with the rituals and drumming....one to park for later in life for her.
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